Inspiration

The day I left Selah House, my therapist gave me a necklace with three words that describe me. My necklace read "strength" "courage" and "inspire." The word inspire has become a word of my recovery. When I first got to Selah I felt compelled to encourage and inspire the other girls. But, I could not help the others until I helped myself. I felt I would be a hypocrite if I was encouraging others to get help with their issues, while I still coped with mine by unhealthy ways.  So, after Selah House, and feeling stronger in my recovery is when I started to help those around me. It startedwith  friends from past treatment centers, then this blog, people at my school, and now talking to school. Doing this kind of help is what makes me feel better and more confident in myself and my life. In the past month and half that I have been home, iv received an incredible amount of compliments in my recovery and what I am doing. I've been told countless times that I'm an inspiration to so many, and thats what keeps me in recovery. To be truthful, I have struggled a lot since being back, and there has been times when I just want to give up and go back to those sick behaviors.  But, when those thoughts are taking over my mind I think about those who I've helped, those who have encouraged me, and all those people I want to inspire. That's what keeps me in recovery.