Giving Up Your Eating Disorder

                     It is scary to let go of something that you have had in your life for so long. When Struggling with an eating disorder for years, it becomes all you know. You become comfortable in the routine of self hate, anxiety, and guilt after every meal. Even in recovery you want to keep holding on to a small part of your eating disorder, because you have no idea what life will be without it. You have to start realizing how horrible and unnecessary your eating disorder is for you. You have to notice how much of your life you are wasting by stressing out over anything you eat. If you want to be truly happy, if you want to fully embrace recovery and start loving yourself and your life, you have to let go. You have to let go of the past, you have to stop replaying those horrible moments in your head, and you have to move on. You have to let go of the idea that eating what you want will make you gain weight, because you are smart enough to know that eating a burger and fries will not change your body. You have to let go of the self hate and all the negative things you say to yourself, you may still have those thoughts but you can choose to not listen to them. You have to let go of your fear of food, because you deserve to eat delicious things, like ice cream and pizza, without the guilt following it. By letting go of all of those damaging things, you can start to truly live your life. You can start accepting yourself, for who you are. You can start letting others care and love for you, even at your ugliest times. You can start being happy.