I was just blessed with an opportunity to work a month as a camp counselor at Camp Tecusmeh. It is the camp I had spent a couple weeks at each summer the past six years. My experience working there was better than any time as a camper, and it definitely left an impact on me. Everyday at camp I was filled with joy, gratitude, and tranquility. I found bliss in each small thing. In the bright eyes of a smiling camper, or while the whole camp sang along to a chapel song, or even just when I looked up to the huge open sky, filled with billions of dazzling stars.
One day, as I walked down a path to my cabin for a much needed rest hour, I realized that I was truly happy and at peace with myself. I looked out to the clear sky above the forest of pine trees and felt so content with my life. I was so proud that I was spending my days with kids, giving them the best time of their summers and I was so thrilled to be at my favorite place on Earth. I realized how happy I felt. I also was excited because food was not a constant thought on my mind, and I wasn't feeling urges to harm myself. I then thought about the few times thoughout the weeks when I would feel depressed and alone, or when I felt really guilty for eating candy late at night. But, I realized I was still happy and doing well. Even though I had hard times, I had managed to go a month with only one anxiety attack (and that is awesome!) and I was still enjoying myself. My life was not going perfectly, and I accepted that, and instead realized that I was not worried about myself and enjoying each day of my life. I was amazed that I felt this way, considering that I felt the exact opposite only a few months ago. I was proud and grateful that my life could take such a turn and I could feel so happy. So, I have decided to remember these feelings I felt throughout my time at camp to help carry on that happiness and peacefulness for the rest of the summer.
